Random thoughts again.
So, I've been putting off blogging lately. Been doing a lot of thinking about different things and trying to get a little more organized with things in my life. It's a process, It's kinda fun, It's hellish to have to be patient. I don't do patience so well when it comes to trying to get things in my life fixed. Anywho...
This past weekend my parents came to visit. We did a little Christmas celebration since I won't be going home for the holiday. I made Lasagne, veggies and Cheesecake for Friday when they arrived. I was showing them my apartment and they checked out my 'pantry' (the front closet by the kitchen I put shelving in so I could actually fit cereal boxes somewhere). They saw it was empty and decided to take me to Sam's Club to fill it for my Christmas present.
I've got mixed feelings about that. It's awesome that my pantry is full and I have food, I'm really thankful for that. At the same time I'm feeling kinda resentful because of it. Here I am trying to get my life in order again and make it on my own, and having to accept something like that. I know it's kinda dumb, but I am having trouble swallowing my pride on some issues lately.
Patience. One of those things I'm really not so good with. Sometimes I can be really patient and just let things happen, but most of the time I just want things to happen and be over with so I can move on to the next thing.
Anywho, I'm doin pretty well. In a bit of a 'funk' today, but getting over it. Thinking about all the positive things around me helps. I have some really awesome friends. I have a decent job. I have a great apartment that's (finally) clean and comfortable. I'm making progress in life. It's cool.
Mood: Content for the most part.
On my mind: Going over things I've heard at meetings and in my relations group about feelings and communication. I need to start voicing what's on my mind. Never know, might actually impact someone. Hard for me to do though.
Advice to self: Get over it, Get on with it, Get off your butt and just let go.
I've been dancing in my living-room. Must look kinda goofy to the neighbors, but It's good exercise. =c)
This past weekend my parents came to visit. We did a little Christmas celebration since I won't be going home for the holiday. I made Lasagne, veggies and Cheesecake for Friday when they arrived. I was showing them my apartment and they checked out my 'pantry' (the front closet by the kitchen I put shelving in so I could actually fit cereal boxes somewhere). They saw it was empty and decided to take me to Sam's Club to fill it for my Christmas present.
I've got mixed feelings about that. It's awesome that my pantry is full and I have food, I'm really thankful for that. At the same time I'm feeling kinda resentful because of it. Here I am trying to get my life in order again and make it on my own, and having to accept something like that. I know it's kinda dumb, but I am having trouble swallowing my pride on some issues lately.
Patience. One of those things I'm really not so good with. Sometimes I can be really patient and just let things happen, but most of the time I just want things to happen and be over with so I can move on to the next thing.
Anywho, I'm doin pretty well. In a bit of a 'funk' today, but getting over it. Thinking about all the positive things around me helps. I have some really awesome friends. I have a decent job. I have a great apartment that's (finally) clean and comfortable. I'm making progress in life. It's cool.
Mood: Content for the most part.
On my mind: Going over things I've heard at meetings and in my relations group about feelings and communication. I need to start voicing what's on my mind. Never know, might actually impact someone. Hard for me to do though.
Advice to self: Get over it, Get on with it, Get off your butt and just let go.
I've been dancing in my living-room. Must look kinda goofy to the neighbors, but It's good exercise. =c)
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