Lazy Saturday...
I love days like this. I slept in until 9:30, did some laundry, made breakfast, Watched a movie (40 Days & 40 Nights), checked out other blogs for a while, took a nice long shower, watched another movie (Uptown Girls), Called my friend Brandee in Nashville, chatted a long while, now I'm just chillin a bit. I haven't gone outside, too cold, but I've been enjoying the sun streaming in through my blinds. Been doing a lot of thinking about life in general lately, getting to know myself better, hanging out with friends, stuff like that. It's been good.
Last Night I tried to have a movie night at my place, but everyone I thought to invite already had plans, so one of my newer friends came over and we just hung out and chatted about all kinds of stuff. It was really cool. I really like getting to know people, but there are some people that lately I've just been 'clicking' with and having great conversations.
Now I'm just chillin, letting all the new info I've taken in from life settle in for a bit. Don't know what's up next, but looking forward to it.
Mood: RELAXED. Surprising after this past week, but I'm really feeling good about things.
Outlook: Very Positive. The low points in life really do make me appreciate the middle ground and high points more.
Most recent Mental image/story: I've been seeing my life like a big glass sphere lately, about the size of a basketball that I'm holding in my hands. At one point the sphere started to crack either from being dropped or being smashed or just getting weak over time. When it started to crack I tried to hold it together but it just cracked and splintered more until I was trying to hold together a mass of sharp glass shards that cut into my hands, I was embarrassed by it and didn't want to show anyone else. For a while I was pouring liquids over it which filled all the cracks but then they just ran out and dried up. Finally I got so disgusted with trying to hold the sphere together by myself that I went looking for a way to fix it. I ran across someone holding a sphere just like mine, It was cracked, but it was staying together a lot better than mine. When I asked him how he did it he said, "Here, let me show you" and he took one of his hands and placed it next to mine. With his help we could arrange the pieces of my sphere better and they started to hold together, cracks where still apparent, but the pieces were staying together. Then I did something odd, I took one of my hands away from my sphere to help him hold his, it was warm under my fingers which was unusual to me because mine was always so cold when I was trying to keep it together. He said, "This is how it works: I help hold yours; you help hold mine. Even though you can't see them, there are other hands helping me hold mine together just like I'm helping hold yours." I felt my sphere starting to warm up from his touch then I looked and suddenly it wasn't just our two hands holding my life sphere together, there were hands reaching out to me from all over, hands of people holding spheres like ours. Each hand that reached out to help hold my sphere together increased its' warmth and stability. I slowly learned that I could reach out to the other people helping me to help them...
That's as far as I've come in the story. If/when more concerning this thought process/image happens, I'll share that too.
Peace.
JD
Last Night I tried to have a movie night at my place, but everyone I thought to invite already had plans, so one of my newer friends came over and we just hung out and chatted about all kinds of stuff. It was really cool. I really like getting to know people, but there are some people that lately I've just been 'clicking' with and having great conversations.
Now I'm just chillin, letting all the new info I've taken in from life settle in for a bit. Don't know what's up next, but looking forward to it.
Mood: RELAXED. Surprising after this past week, but I'm really feeling good about things.
Outlook: Very Positive. The low points in life really do make me appreciate the middle ground and high points more.
Most recent Mental image/story: I've been seeing my life like a big glass sphere lately, about the size of a basketball that I'm holding in my hands. At one point the sphere started to crack either from being dropped or being smashed or just getting weak over time. When it started to crack I tried to hold it together but it just cracked and splintered more until I was trying to hold together a mass of sharp glass shards that cut into my hands, I was embarrassed by it and didn't want to show anyone else. For a while I was pouring liquids over it which filled all the cracks but then they just ran out and dried up. Finally I got so disgusted with trying to hold the sphere together by myself that I went looking for a way to fix it. I ran across someone holding a sphere just like mine, It was cracked, but it was staying together a lot better than mine. When I asked him how he did it he said, "Here, let me show you" and he took one of his hands and placed it next to mine. With his help we could arrange the pieces of my sphere better and they started to hold together, cracks where still apparent, but the pieces were staying together. Then I did something odd, I took one of my hands away from my sphere to help him hold his, it was warm under my fingers which was unusual to me because mine was always so cold when I was trying to keep it together. He said, "This is how it works: I help hold yours; you help hold mine. Even though you can't see them, there are other hands helping me hold mine together just like I'm helping hold yours." I felt my sphere starting to warm up from his touch then I looked and suddenly it wasn't just our two hands holding my life sphere together, there were hands reaching out to me from all over, hands of people holding spheres like ours. Each hand that reached out to help hold my sphere together increased its' warmth and stability. I slowly learned that I could reach out to the other people helping me to help them...
That's as far as I've come in the story. If/when more concerning this thought process/image happens, I'll share that too.
Peace.
JD
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