Today was just an odd day...

I woke up this morning, hit snooze a couple times, rolled out of bed, stumbled into the bathroom, smoked a couple cigs while reading my meditation book, showered, finished getting ready and hurried out the door. All routine. The sidewalks were glassy with ice due to freezing rain so I slid most of the way towards my bus stop. I was just kinda zoning out watching a white van coming down 26th St. towards me, realized the light had been green for a while so I should probably get moving across the street but was distracted by a white car coming down Lyndale towards me. I was still kinda zoning and not quite ready to actually move to cross the street and was thinking, "Huh. I wonder if that car realizes it's got a red light." My brain was moving kinda slow because in the time it took me see the white van, realize I should be crossing the street and ask myself that question, the white car hadn't stopped and the white van hadn't stopped and I hadn't started moving. It was like slow motion watching the two vehicles trying to occupy the same space at the same time. Laws of Physics, Inertia, Transfer of energy... Like pool balls, the two objects collided and ricocheted. Suddenly the car was going up 26th St taking out a light pole and the van was heading down Lyndale. I was like, "Huh. That's odd, oh, the light's green, I should walk." So I crossed the street to my bus stop.

I did wake up at that point and realize what had actually happened and called 9-1-1, made sure everyone was OK for the most part and waited for the emergency personnel to come, gave them my info and recounted what I had seen. Then on the bus I was replaying it all in my head and realized that if I had been watching the light and had started walking when I should have, I would have been in the middle of the two vehicles when they collided. I wonder how that would have affected the inertia transfer.

Thus started my day. Kinda put some things into perspective about life and choices made. Made me pensive and appreciative all day.

Things on my mind: Life is not a given.
Also, the song Wig in a Box from "Hedwig and the Angry Inch."

Outlook: Ok. Kinda in a slump that cake and ice cream didn't help much, thinking I need to get some sleep.

Still looking forward to getting together with people this week to get to know them better and to talk out some of this stuff bouncing around in my cranium. Ready to be open, honest and willing with them, gotta remember to temper it and avoid extremes which would probably just scare the bejezus outta them. hehe.

OK. In the 10 minutes it took to spellcheck and add the last paragraph I've started laughing. Darn mood swings. I really am looking forward to this week. I will be getting/giving LOTS of hugs tomorrow. That makes me feel all warm and squishy inside, like oatmeal, but better. hehe =c)

Yep, I need sleep.

JD.